This is What I Choose

Every job I've ever had, I hit this road block at about 18 months.  By then, I know my job and I do it well.  I've figured out all the tips and secrets.  I've got the routines down to an art.  I could do every detail of my job in my sleep if I needed to.  The problem is that I get complacent and bored.  Waldenbooks?  18 months and I moved on to the medical field.  Sandpiper Bay Retirement and Nursing Home?  18 months and I started looking for a different location.  Haysville Healthcare Center?  18 months and I stopped working to follow my husband with the Air Force.  I was a stay-at-home mom for 6 years.  When my husband separated from the Air Force though, it was time to return to the workforce.  I started working with the school district..... wait for it.... 18 months ago.   

I have no problems with work.  I like to work!  I have wonderful work ethic and am very devoted to my place of employment.  When I'm working though, I'm so devoted to my job that I sacrifice time with my family.  I'm a great multi-tasker within my daily routine, but for some reason I can only do one thing really well at a time.  Since someone is paying me and investing a lot of time/money into me at a job - I feel some kind of obligation to give them the majority of my efforts.  That job is the one thing I do really well while my family gets what's left over.  <---- That breaks my heart.  Some people are fantastic at balancing work-life and family-life.  They are super employee from 9 - 5 and super mom from 5 - 9  I'm, unfortunately, just not one of those people.


Looking back at all the things I've done, I always get bored and start itching to move on.  The one thing I never itched at though?  Motherhood.  Being with my family.  It's the only "job" I've ever done for longer than 18 months and didn't get bored.  I never hit that rut of feeling like I'm not growing or that I'm not making enough of an impact.  I think it's because parenthood is always changing and I'm always having to figure out new things.  The "job" of being a parent never stays the same for long.  Just as I start to master one skill, the kids get another year older, encounter new things/people and I have to keep up.

If I'm going to do one thing really well - I choose my family.  Which is what makes me say with confidence and with no regrets that I'm going to resign from my job and be a stay-at-home mom/wife.  I'm going to be 30 this year and it's time to focus on us as a family.  I want to be there for school plays, parent teacher conferences and to help with school projects.  I want to be available at the drop of a hat to talk, cuddle, discipline or console.  I want to be able to sneak away and have lunch with my husband while the kids are at school.  I also want time to figure out who Glenna is!  This could be my time to go back to college, volunteer and get more active with the kids' school and our church.  There is just so much I can be devoting my life to other than a paycheck.  That is what I choose for me.